Loneliness (reflections)

// May 26th, 2009 // reflections

from the archives:

“I don’t know what’s happening for past few weeks, I’ve realized I feel lonesome… and day by day this feeling gets intense… i wonder why…

…and I strongly believe that I need somebody to share all my sorrows, my aggravation and tensions. Sharing happiness seems less problematic… it’s not really a big deal… that’s what i feel sometimes…

I want to get rid of all this tension I had to experience lately… life has never been this tough on me… I’m way to dependent on someone else’s deeds.. that’s one of the worst realizations I’ve ever had… it makes me feel miserable… I’m doing all these efforts for nothing (or for something REALLY great) i don’t know… all I know that, YES, it is life! … that we live for others… we do things for others.. but I don’t know if it has to be the way I’m going through…

One other worst feeling amongst all is the lack of time spent with myself… .

I hate to think that maybe I’m just drowning that inner me… the day-dreamer… a frequent flier to fantasy land… I don’t want to lose myself… I’m getting farther away from myself… I wonder whats going to happen… maybe that inner me, the day-dreamer, would die away… i hate it.. i don want to think about it… i hope things get better..

listening to a sweet serene instrumental… its so soothing.. i wish i could just lay down and keep listening to this music.. forgetting all the bitterness of this world… the bitterness that is absorbing within me…”

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9 Responses to “Loneliness (reflections)”

  1. Shahzad Khan says:
    May 26, 2009 at 1:15 am

    Dude it's mostly due to the lack of rest and sleep, we all go through it once in a while. Get some rest, sleep well for some days and this feeling goes away.. no kidding. it's due to the lack of snooze :)

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  2. rain girl says:
    May 26, 2009 at 4:17 am

    happens with all of us at some point.. so don't worry. it will pass, but you will have to work on it a bit..take a solo holiday – even a day off will help…

    all the best.

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  3. Le Mystique says:
    May 26, 2009 at 9:20 am

    First visit to your blog…
    I hope you won´t mind my take on this.
    In my opinion (and I might be utterly wrong about whatever I suggest below)You should not let the dreamer within you die. All we have and all we are was once just a dream. Hence dreams is all we actually own.
    It is nice to see you viewing your own life as something you live for others, but we can´t help others if we can´t help ourselves. Do not let the wordly materialistic competitions tire you off. At the end of the day we are all alone and our only competitor is our own self. Nothing else matters.
    If we can live with less (less money, less overwork, less insomnia, less spending), I think we can do a whole lot better. Taking a day or a week off may help but only temporarily. You may need changing your perspective.
    You may need to probably change your daily schedule so that you have more time to regain your energies back.

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    • FurSid says:
      June 15, 2009 at 5:47 pm

      sorry for getting back this late… it's been a hectic life after all keeping me busy and involved. i appreciate your take on this. and you're quite right mostly. though i differ on things you suggest we can control and change… sometimes we're not left with a choice to choose… and i believe venting out is a good way to cleanse ur soul… i appreciate your opinion and wouldn't mind engaging in a conversation for this or any other opinion i've expressed or will do.

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  4. Rockstar says:
    May 26, 2009 at 3:12 pm

    Dude,
    you need a GIRL! Period!

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  5. SR_ says:
    July 8, 2009 at 1:34 am

    I wont take back the stuff I said to you upon all of this.. but realized how I came across the same sorta feeling. It's a phase I guess.. :)

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